Finding quietness in the middle of Noise

There are several things taking place in my life. For each of those things, I have several tears, several smiles, several laughs, several concerns. In the middle of this storm. I have to find quietness. Many times, its in prayer. Sometimes, its a song. Sometimes, a book. While none of us care for pain, it is apart of life. Sometimes that pain is the noise of our lives. We need to find that quietness that only God can give. This is where I am.

An Open Letter to my future wife VII

Hi Sweetie,

How you doing? I hope all is well in your world. Me, I dont know sometimes. Yet what I do know is that I miss you forwardly. After all, how can you miss someone you have not met. I miss you because I need you to get out of my mind and onto the real canvas of life. Some of my friends have found love. I am happy for them. I wish I was one of them. Even now, I want to go and take a midnight cruise with you. Listening to old school R&B or Jazz. Well, thats about it for now. Until then, I love you much, I love you more. I love you most.

XOXOXO

Richard.

Fatherhood Follies and Face Ups

You know since my child came into this world, I was smitten. My daughter is a crazy little female version of me. That is scary. I love this little girl. Well, the little girl who was snug as a bug as an infant is now a acne fighting, frizzy hair, boy crazy 14 year old. Yeah. Pray my strength. As a father it is my duty to warn, threaten, scream, prevent, and protect this female teenager from nasty little boys and perverted older boys and sick men. It is what it is.

Now, being that she's a female. She has these emotions which half the time are hard to understand. She likes boys. Ugh. Its not so bad. But with the bible, bail money and bullets. I figure, we gonna be alright. One thing is for sure, you cannot sleep on anything. The smallest inkling or crack can become a cave for carnality. There are days when I realize Im going to be the bad guy. Im not interested in being my daughter's friend. I have to be her parent. Yeah, I like being the cool dad, but too often her actions have the cool dad hotter than the fish grease at Timmy Chan's.

There is a school year coming quick fast and in a hurry. Her first year of high school. Lord help me. We should be good. Im expecting great things for her. We pushing hard this year. Sometimes you want things more for your child than they do. That's okay. I think most parents do but maybe not willing to admit it for fear that they may actually be living their lives through their children. Its important for them to let them have their life. Growing up is like that driving school car. You have to let them get in the driver's seat. But remember, the brake pedal on your side is there to help them and you. Whew! I love this life.

"Call it an agressive approach"

Just imagine, if met you this morning. Courted you this afternoon. Gave you a ring this evening. Married you tonight. Do you think it would last?

Hard to say. This is based upon a tweet I sent a few months ago.

Love is the most wonderful thing in the world.

It also is the most unpredictable thing in the world.



Its statements like the one above that make me believe as the bible says, love believes all things.
Yet, what if love came to you in that package?
Yeah, you would be looking for Aston Kutcher, thinking you were on Punk'd or something.

While I do know that is certainly too fast. Things are weird like that today.

It makes you wonder.

If somebody was to ask me whether or not if I would do something like this, I would put a smirk on my face and say, "call it an agressive approach".

An Open Letter to my Wife VI

Hey Sweetie,

Just sitting here and thinking about you. I am trying to work some new things. Yet, I gotta be honest. I dont know if they are going to work or not. I wish you were here to give me some kind of feed back. Thats thing about you, you are not here but I am wishing that you are. It is my prayer that one day, these little small letters will reach your hands and minister comfort because that is what they do for me. I have a stubborn hope when it comes to you. I forwardly miss you.

Love,

Richard.

Dude, where ya been?

Where have you been? What is the excuse now? Im so tired of this nonsense. How are you going to do the stuff you do. You disappear and reappear expecting me to understand? You dont think about nobody but yo self
Well, got that out the way.

What's up good people? I have been tripping lately. Just not here. I have been tweeting a bit and facebooking certainly. But I kinda have walked away from some of my old spots. So I decided to relaunch or restart this here blog. Now I treat my blog like a girlfriend that I dont like being around after awhile. You know she's cute and she makes you laugh but at times you just rather not be bother. It becomes work. Hello, somebody.

So, whats next? Well in the near future a new facelift. More writings. And yes, I am going resurrect my other blog Darth Asylum which has been on life support for too doggone long. So I will handling my business with that. Be patient. Until then, there a few pieces I will drop here and as the old Whodini song goes, "then we gonna get to the good part!" Until then, watch them haters especially the one who see in the mirror.

Relaunch

Greetings, its been a little while. I am currently in the stages of relaunching this blog and another I have truly ignored. Yeah, I have been too busy. Anyhoo, see ya soon!

Peace!