The misunderstandings of dating.

You know being a single 42 year old man isnt all peaches and cream. If you date someone your age, you understand that generally speaking you are going to deal with some issues with the people you date. Case in point.

I have been dating this lady since last September. We have great conversations. We generally enjoy each others company until this past Friday night. I got off early, so I figured we would do an early date. Truth is, I had other things to do later. Now we went to the movies and to dinner. Nothing fancy. Im a single father, so whatever I spend takes away from other things. I'm not a baller, so I have to count every dime. Basically, i spend about 45 dollars. Not bad. Yet the next day, she asks if we are going to Ryans. I made the mistake and told her that I just spend 45 last night and I didnt have it like that. Well, girlfriend goes off. She says thanks for making her feel like crap. She then says we should went to Red Box and got a pizza. Eleven bucks. Now, mind you I wasnt tripping about the money. However, if you are asking if we are going somewhere and we just went out last night and you (Im assuming at this point.. not going to pay) what am I supposed to say? She then tells me that I should have said in response to her question "we are if you are paying". Not a bad response. However, a better one would be "hey lets go to Ryans, Im treating." Then she lectures me about me not saying those same words to another person im dating. Then she offers to give me 22.50 cent for the date. Me being me, I told her it wasnt about the money. Yet, it then pissed me off and if she didnt stay so far from me, I might have been tempted to go and get the money. Well, needless to say things with her are jacked up and probably will be permanently. I dont know. I did call her and she really didnt have anything to say. I probably chose a poor use of words but it was real as real could be. I learned a valuable lesson. Never tell a women what you spend on them. lol Its a shame because I really like her. I guess I blew it.

Why I love the Blues...

Why I love the blues? I guess because I am a Christian, some would say that I am not supposed to listen to this kind of music. Yeah, sure but it serves as a therapy for many of us. When you lose somebody you love, songs have a tendency to help you through the mess. While I know Jesus is the answer ultimately, I know the music is a vehicle that helps you and me get through our storms as well. This is one of those songs that makes you understand that life will always be filled with challenges and heartbreak. It is what it is. Sing it Bobby! I aint mad atcha.

In "I cant believe you white folks news"

What is up with white people? Just ponder that question for a moment.
I mean really. What is really going on with white people? You know the Chris Matthews situation is really funny to most of us. Why? Because its one thing white folks are good at, its reminding you that you are not them. Some people were offended at Chris' statements about looking at President Obama and forgetting he is a black man for an hour. Yeah that shoe must taste wonderful Chris because yes, you inserted your foot in your mouth. Yet, me being who I am I will say, thanks Chris. Thanks for keeping it real. The fact that you see Obama as a Black man 23 hours of the day, tells me that well... yall are really on guard when it comes to the brother. Its almost like waiting for the other shoe to drop. You guys will be waiting because that shoe is orbiting the Saturn right about now.

Now the former NBA loser who decided to play a stingy grumpy judgmental white man regarding Haiti is just another one of those deals where we as a people know we are not liked but some stuff is just out of line. Hey Jackbutt! the grand wizard of the Klan thinks you need to relax. So lets get this straight, you dont want to give money to a nation because you think that the people brought the calamity on themselves...? I guess you probably asking who am I talking about it. Well, I dont like giving a piece of crap any pub, so you are gonna have to get the full details from another blog or website. You know this loser is just waiting to be swung on. The problem is many people feel the same. But you know whats surprising, its mostly white people.

I dont get the right... They are so wrong how could they even be considered to be the right. Yet, even the right have problems. Take that fat dope fiend wanna be NFL owner on the AM dial. Yeah, yall know who im talking about. This cat is just itching to be scratched. Some foolishness is always flying out his piehole. I know why whites bother to listen to this gas bag. They honestly dont like anyone but themselves. Even the sellouts that occupy the right find that this dude and his mentality need to go. Dont get me started on the sell outs. Stay Tuned, I got something for all em. As far as whites not liking President Obama, we dont expect all of yall to be in love with the brother. Why you think we dont fly off the handle when you do say something stupid like "I hope he fails". Or worst peckerwoods in the pulpit calling for God to kill Obama. Dont get me started on the nutcases that think he is the anti-Christ. Yeah white people, we know you dont like us. We know you never have. We know that you will always have an issue with us. That's cool. We expect nothing less from you.

Now... white people need to ponder one thing. They know we love President Obama. If its one thing they dont want, that is for somebody to assault the president. Malcolm X was uncalled for. Dr King's murder was beyond words. Yet, if something happens to President Obama.... You might want to speed up your plans for the apocalypse. They say third time is a charm. Well, trust me... that is something you dont want. You dont want the president to fail and God forbid if somebody tries to take his life. It will be on and not just here but all over the world. This silly neo nazis and their ilk talk about a race war as if that is something they really want. Hey stupid white people... you do know you are outnumbered globally 14 to 1 right? Lets get one thing straight white people. Yall talk a good game and somedays you usually show up. Yet take this to the bank... if something were to happen to our beloved President. You will lose this nation permanently. 2042 is around the corner. Oh for those that dont know... thats the year when whites will become a minority in this nation. Yall need to get somewhere and sit down. I mean what is it with you guys? Most whites are great. They are passionate, they care about the world and everyone in it. Yet, its a segment that we could just deal without. Yall had stones to enslave and colonize the world and give people a picture of Jesus that is erroneous. This aint your world anymore. Yall losing your power. I know it sucks but get over it. Otherwise, you will go down in history as being a great people who just couldnt get over themselves and thought everyone else should be like you or be a slave in your world. Chris was right... Obama is post racial... but too bad yall cant get over the color of his skin. I think yall would really like the guy. But then again... you wouldnt be white people otherwise. I feel sorry for yall. So much power and yet so little understanding. Sucks to be you... Next.

Real Talk.... a message to you and you and you and you and you too.

Love is whatever you can still betray ... Betrayal can only happen if you love. ~ John LeCarre




I have been misunderstood,
thought of as no good.
I try to leave the hood,
but the hood is just in me.
while enemies act friendly.
The whole thought just offends me.

I don't have friends,
and that's for a reason.
Too much trust is like too much seasoning,
it will leave you salty,
while hearts are faulty.
So if I aint interested, don't fault me.


My heart goes out to the babies,
the rest of yall done drove me crazy.
I cant live my life for you,
or whatever you do,
who gonna look out for what I do.

You see trust is reserved for God,
to love and trust the rest of yall is just too hard.
too many are fraud
I rather lean on the LORD.
He don't break my heart,
He don't break my spirit.
If I call, I know He hear it.

If I sent you text,
or call,
you probably wont call back.
So why you surprised when I fall back?
I dont run around trying be all in your face.
If you dont want me, then you will be replaced.

Im just sick of nonsense,
the hurt and the pain.
The wind, and the storms that accompany the rain.
I believe in God, I wanna believe in you too,
but all thats predicated on what you do.
When you show me who you are,
that's what I'm gonna believe.
The truth speaks with proof,
so why even bother trying to deceive?
Real Talk...

When you cannot have what you want.

In dominoes the game, there is a proverb.
"All money aint good money"
Life is the same way.
You cannot have everything you want.
It doesnt matter what it is or who it is.
Life is not about getting always what you want.
Last night I dreamed about someone.
Someone who I want.
Yet, it is someone I cannot have.
For whatever reason, life happened.
Because life happens, things are set in a way where its not to be.
You could say its like living a lie.
Have you ever tasted a fine wine
and remember how it touched the pallet of your tongue?
Do remember how it smoothly went down and gave you a warmth unlike no other wine?
How would you like to know that you would never get to taste it ever again?
Its almost tormenting.
Sometimes things you touch and taste,
are not for sale or for consumption... anymore.
Its enough to bring a tear to your eye.
Life happens.
So now you walk about aimlessly.
Confused. Conflicted. Confounded.
All of these cons.
Leave you convinced.
You been conned.
Even as you go forward.
Like Lot's wife, you just want to see what you cannot have...
again.
Yet, like the dominoes proverb says "all money aint good money".
So you make another play.
And try not remember what could or could have been.
Life happens.
Again and Again.

Richard J Wright (2010)

Unmotivated

Sometimes I get in a funk. Just the day to day grind wears on you. You desperately want to have something else but there is no light in sight regarding the tunnel. Sometimes you just have ride it out. Thats what Im doing, because honestly there is nothing else to do. Get back to yall sooner than later I hope.

Set back the Clock

As I gaze at the calendar on my wall.
I think to myself.
This thing is old.
Yet, it has set there for past month or so.
2009 has gone and this calendar has got to go.
Yet, for some reason
I wish I could set back the clock.
Go back far enough to reverse the tick tocks.
I'd go back to the day she left.
I'd go back to the day I regret.
I'd go back to the day I lost my way.
I'd go back to the day I lost my pay.
It makes no sense to wish I could rewind.
I just dont want to cry in those times.
I just wanna undo whats been done.
Then I think about the days I won.
So since I dont wanna redo that time.
Why waste a time machine trip that might make me blind.
I couldnt see what the pain would do for me.
How it made me forgive
and how it made me live.


Richard J Wright (2010)