The Pulling

We are living in interesting times. God is up to something clearly. He is allowing things to be exposed. There was a time whenever somebody in the church did something, it could be covered up or worked over in regards to damage control. Well with the internet and technology, as the old saying goes, the jig is up.

Recently a well known pastor, died and the circumstances surrounding his death are peculiar. While I wont go into that situation, we all know of the bishop who was allegedly doing things to young boys. That situation is horrible.

Both of these men, had things pulling at them. The truth is we all do. If we do not deal with our issues privately, they can unfortunately become public. While I realize that we are all human, make no mistake. As Christians, we are held to a high standard. Therefore, we cannot use the human excuse. We have to fight our temptations instead of inviting them. I am guilty of this myself. I realize that there are things inside of me that are not Godly and I need to constantly work on making sure these things in my flesh do not rule my life. We all have something pulling at us. If we say we don't, then we are lying.

Happy Birthday Mama & Micheal

today is my mama's birthday. plus its also Micheal Jackson's birthday too. i spent a little time with my mommy. i gave her some roses, a card, and heath klondike bars (she loves em) i am fortunate to have a great mommy. thanks God!


as far as Micheal goes, hey what can i say. i miss him. happy birthday to the king of pop.

Would You Talk To Me

There is a conversation,
I would love to have with you.
It can be about anything.
Just as long as it is with you.

We can talk politics, war, music, religion,
sneakers, fashion, movies, or even good and bad decisions.
A good conversation is like a good jazz composition.
Everything is timing and improvising.
And with you, I can see the melody of words between you and me.

I see the hour getting late,
but the conversation getting better.
I hear the laughter in our words,
the funny in our thoughts.
I just wish we could be right here,
for a moment. Freeze it.
Replay it.
Then again for a lifetime with you,
I wouldn't have to.
But for now, I just make this request you see,
would you, could you...
talk to me?

Making Room for the "One"

People in your life sometimes prepare you for things. I honestly believe that people can be apart of your life but not in your life. What do you mean by that preacher? I think people can hold certain attention to your life but not be a force or object in your life. We can be influenced by people or we can influence people. Either way, it can be something else to know the reality of your life. What do I mean?

Being single, has offered me the company of a few women. In meeting and learning these women, I have learned much about them but more importantly, more about myself. When you first meet someone, they can sway your attention. They get prompt phone calls. They get late night conversations. They get early morning chats. Then reality sets in. You come to understand that they are not the "one".

As a man. I have to find the "one". So often, you meet people and they are cool to talk with and even hang out with but you know they are not the "one". So basically you wind up wasting your time or worst maybe even settling. Women are strange creatures. Loveable. Funny. Smart. Yet, at their worst not understandable. Complexity isnt a bad thing but for a man it can be a frustrating thing. I am not complaining. However, do not fault me for deciding to look elsewhere when you are not making it easy to understand you. So sometimes, you have to go through your phone rolodex and the one in your mind and begin to delete old numbers.

I do know everything but I do know that the one, is a space filler. You cannot entertain or consider others when she is in play. While the one may be hard to spot from initial contact, she begins to make herself seen with her fruits and she has no complications.

Complications are those things that one cannot ignore when dealing with someone. For example, baby daddy issues, or "oh you still married, after not being with your husband over five years?" Who does that? I tell you who, many women out here. Parading themselves as available but not officially. At the end of the day, we all have our issues but some stuff cannot be ignored. For women, its the same deal. If I have issues, I need to deal with my issues. I dont want my issues to be "your" issues. I met a sister a couple of years ago who was married. She was married to a guy who left her over 10 years ago. Yet, she remained married. Why? She told me, she didnt have the money to file divorce. Well, needless to say, I couldn't do anything with that because it wasnt my issue. Should a person wait to divorce until someone new comes along? That is crazy. That example has been only one a few situations that have turned me off to dating.

Right now, I am not dating. I want to, but at this moment in time. I do not feel it is best. I have friends who like me but I cannot fully be persuaded to go forward because I know they are not the one. It is what it is. Until I meet her. Its just something to do until something better comes along. That isnt fair to them, so its best that they remain unclaimed and are able to date whomever. I have stories for days but at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how many stories I have. All that matters is the one and that story has yet to take place.

Your Smile

Your smile,
makes the day feel brighter.
When I gaze at you,
I cannot help but feel lighter.
Your warmness,
is a peace all in itself.
It is the only thing I know.
It is the only thing I feel can help.
While I have nothing that compares,
your smile gives me an awareness.
That life is good.
That life means more.
That your smile says to me,
"I am a welcoming door"
Enter and be not afraid.
My smile is the coolness of shade.
Though it is mine,
it is a piece of artistry
for you to know.


Richard J Wright (2011)

Finding quietness in the middle of Noise

There are several things taking place in my life. For each of those things, I have several tears, several smiles, several laughs, several concerns. In the middle of this storm. I have to find quietness. Many times, its in prayer. Sometimes, its a song. Sometimes, a book. While none of us care for pain, it is apart of life. Sometimes that pain is the noise of our lives. We need to find that quietness that only God can give. This is where I am.

An Open Letter to my future wife VII

Hi Sweetie,

How you doing? I hope all is well in your world. Me, I dont know sometimes. Yet what I do know is that I miss you forwardly. After all, how can you miss someone you have not met. I miss you because I need you to get out of my mind and onto the real canvas of life. Some of my friends have found love. I am happy for them. I wish I was one of them. Even now, I want to go and take a midnight cruise with you. Listening to old school R&B or Jazz. Well, thats about it for now. Until then, I love you much, I love you more. I love you most.

XOXOXO

Richard.

Fatherhood Follies and Face Ups

You know since my child came into this world, I was smitten. My daughter is a crazy little female version of me. That is scary. I love this little girl. Well, the little girl who was snug as a bug as an infant is now a acne fighting, frizzy hair, boy crazy 14 year old. Yeah. Pray my strength. As a father it is my duty to warn, threaten, scream, prevent, and protect this female teenager from nasty little boys and perverted older boys and sick men. It is what it is.

Now, being that she's a female. She has these emotions which half the time are hard to understand. She likes boys. Ugh. Its not so bad. But with the bible, bail money and bullets. I figure, we gonna be alright. One thing is for sure, you cannot sleep on anything. The smallest inkling or crack can become a cave for carnality. There are days when I realize Im going to be the bad guy. Im not interested in being my daughter's friend. I have to be her parent. Yeah, I like being the cool dad, but too often her actions have the cool dad hotter than the fish grease at Timmy Chan's.

There is a school year coming quick fast and in a hurry. Her first year of high school. Lord help me. We should be good. Im expecting great things for her. We pushing hard this year. Sometimes you want things more for your child than they do. That's okay. I think most parents do but maybe not willing to admit it for fear that they may actually be living their lives through their children. Its important for them to let them have their life. Growing up is like that driving school car. You have to let them get in the driver's seat. But remember, the brake pedal on your side is there to help them and you. Whew! I love this life.

"Call it an agressive approach"

Just imagine, if met you this morning. Courted you this afternoon. Gave you a ring this evening. Married you tonight. Do you think it would last?

Hard to say. This is based upon a tweet I sent a few months ago.

Love is the most wonderful thing in the world.

It also is the most unpredictable thing in the world.



Its statements like the one above that make me believe as the bible says, love believes all things.
Yet, what if love came to you in that package?
Yeah, you would be looking for Aston Kutcher, thinking you were on Punk'd or something.

While I do know that is certainly too fast. Things are weird like that today.

It makes you wonder.

If somebody was to ask me whether or not if I would do something like this, I would put a smirk on my face and say, "call it an agressive approach".

An Open Letter to my Wife VI

Hey Sweetie,

Just sitting here and thinking about you. I am trying to work some new things. Yet, I gotta be honest. I dont know if they are going to work or not. I wish you were here to give me some kind of feed back. Thats thing about you, you are not here but I am wishing that you are. It is my prayer that one day, these little small letters will reach your hands and minister comfort because that is what they do for me. I have a stubborn hope when it comes to you. I forwardly miss you.

Love,

Richard.

Dude, where ya been?

Where have you been? What is the excuse now? Im so tired of this nonsense. How are you going to do the stuff you do. You disappear and reappear expecting me to understand? You dont think about nobody but yo self
Well, got that out the way.

What's up good people? I have been tripping lately. Just not here. I have been tweeting a bit and facebooking certainly. But I kinda have walked away from some of my old spots. So I decided to relaunch or restart this here blog. Now I treat my blog like a girlfriend that I dont like being around after awhile. You know she's cute and she makes you laugh but at times you just rather not be bother. It becomes work. Hello, somebody.

So, whats next? Well in the near future a new facelift. More writings. And yes, I am going resurrect my other blog Darth Asylum which has been on life support for too doggone long. So I will handling my business with that. Be patient. Until then, there a few pieces I will drop here and as the old Whodini song goes, "then we gonna get to the good part!" Until then, watch them haters especially the one who see in the mirror.

Relaunch

Greetings, its been a little while. I am currently in the stages of relaunching this blog and another I have truly ignored. Yeah, I have been too busy. Anyhoo, see ya soon!

Peace!